Risk it or lose it.
– 28 Sept 2017, 10:34 AM
– 28 Sept 2017, 10:34 AM
As an overthinker, it is usual in my daily routine to think and sweat about the small stuff. All those trivial what-if’s and maybe’s come to life right in front of me unconsciously, leaving me wondering all my life.
I think about instances that are not happening. At first, I was in denial. I couldn’t categorize gut-feeling from anxiety. It’s a messed up kind of relationship and these two really have to separate. So, I decided one day to separate my instincts from the worries which are unreal.
You see, I have experienced series of headaches from overthinking. It made me sleepy even during my work hours. It is kind of exhausting and it deteriorates my healthy lifestyle. Yes, our brain is part of our health hence, mental health is how we know it. I never thought it would come that far – my anxiety affecting my physical activities.
I had a lot of excuses – “I know one day I’ll get over this. I just have to meditate somewhere peaceful.“; “I just need some time alone to focus on my well-being.“; “I need someone to sympathize on my situation.” Until one day, something had snapped and woke me up to reality – “You got to live your life and it should start within you. No one else will help you but yourself. You need somebody but you must first need yourself to love you.”
These worries and unrealistic probabilities that my mind makes up every damn day are tiresome. Situations that are not actually happening keep messing up my head. Screams of wild imagination amplify as my brain captures every wave they resonate. They are disturbing and draining. One day, I just got exhausted. I quit.
Yes, I quit from worrying the things that are not happening and began to have faith in what the universe might give me. I began to open myself to reality and respond normally to every situation that needs to be acted upon. I began to live.
Now, I am alive again.
Letting go is simply accepting the things that have been going on without questioning God’s will.
When things don’t go as you planned, just let go and let God. He has a better plan for you. And yes, the universe will always be in your favor.
This is a copy-paste blog entry from my previous blog site – ieatstarsandrainbows – where I used to write my travel notes. Revision has been made.
February 28, 2015
It started with a friend’s invite.
One of my closest friends, Elai, invited me to go on a day hike with her and her friend, Sam. Thinking that it’d be my first day hike, I didn’t hesitate to join.The date was already set before they invited me and Sam made the itinerary days before the hike. So, everything was set. All I had to do was follow everything. I spent the night before the hike at Elai’s house, thinking that it’d be easier for me to travel with them than to meet them at the jump-off. That sleepover was almost considered as a side-trip. I didn’t foresee that Elai’s house was farther than I expected. Take note: I traveled during the evening ‘til midnight. It was thrilling and fun, though.
I woke up with tired eyes and sleepyhead the next morning. Our itinerary stated that we should be on our way by 3 AM. At exactly that time, we just woke up! Basically, we’re behind our schedule.From Cavite City, where Elai lives, we rode a bus going to Buendia. From there, we were supposed to ride a bus going to Lemery, Batangas but unfortunately, the first bus already took off a few minutes before we arrived.The bus staff offered us an alternative route, instructed that we could take the bus (that was going to leave anytime soon) going to Lipa via Tambo Exit, and we could ride the Jeepney going to Lemery.We didn’t have any choice so we immediately hopped in.
From Tambo Exit, we took a jeepney going to Lemery and alighted at Cuenca where our jump-off was. We left Cavite City at 4 AM and arrived at the jump-off around 8 AM. We started hiking at 8 AM. Before going to the jump-off, you have to register and leave one ID from your group. Sam was the one who left her ID. Then, each would have to pay PHP 20 at the registration counter. A guide is required before ascending. Rates differ depending on the path you choose to take and the number of the members per group. In our case, we were three and we chose to traverse the mountain, and that cost us PHP 1000.
Our local guide was Kuya Pepe. There were two other hikers who went first. They thought they could do some “morning walk” up the mountain without a guide. Though they were locals and familiar with the path, the officials still required them to have a tour guide. So, that’s how they ended up joining our group. They were friendly and quick. I forgot their names, though.
Our team warming up!
I believe this is a dried-up river.
On the first “pit stop”, we saw this. She sells Buko Juice. You’ll be surprised to see more of this up the mountain.
Courtesy of seventhousandstars. 🙂
His name was Jack. He’s the only dog I saw along the whole traverse. He’s so friendly and knowledgeable about modeling. 🙂
Proof! Haha. He looks at the camera!
The view from the campsite.
The view before climbing up the famous Rockies!
Taken by seventhousandstars. 😉
Kuya Pepe’s one great shot!
The Rockies Beauty
Photos taken by our guide, Kuya Pepe, using seventhousandstars phone.
This is our guide – Kuya Pepe – who fearlessly takes photos of his guests.
By around 12 NN, we reached the summit. We stayed for a while to enjoy the pleasure of resting and eating a few snacks. After all that preparation, we started to descend.
Descending was thought to be much easier but we were tired and our knees started to get weak so, we had a rough time. Good thing, Kuya Pepe carried my backpack. Of course, I was hesitant to ask him a favor but I would get injured if I kept carrying that heavy backpack of mine. Besides, Kuya Pepe quite insisted and told me that it was way lighter than the ones he already brought (his own, not from other hikers).
A little story about Kuya Pepe.
His real name is Christopher and he is a newbie when it comes to guiding hikers. He have climbed a lot of mountains already including Mt. Pulag, I think. He told us that he could hike Mt. Maculot for 30 minutes up to the summit and descend for 15-30 minutes. I don’t know what kind of bones he had but it’s impressive. I believed him because he’s fit and his shoes were made for hiking. He said he took basic photography classes aside from training in Philippine Red Cross. He told us what and what not to eat in the mountain, the importance of helping one another and other sorts. We forgot to ask why the mountain was named “Maculot”, though.
Flora along the trail
As we descended, there were paths that required rappelling. This was taken at the first path which was less steep.
I learned rappelling from my P.E. class back in college. So, I found this activity fun and thrilling! After several years, I finally got to use what I learned from school! Yay!
While Sam and Elai were rappelling down, I waited at the top and asked Kuya Pepe to take a photo of me. Hehe.
Then, he took a photo of me while really doing the thing. Lol.
This was the path where we needed to crawl really down low.
That mutual feeling of exhaustion. We decided to stop for a while at the edge of the mountain!
Passed by the Grotto before finally reaching the finish line! Photo courtesy of seventhousandstars.
Smiling through the pain. *Physical pain*
Looking back on what we just hiked. What a satisfying feeling!
After 8 hours, we finally got back to the jump-off, me with sore thighs, Elai with emotionless face and Sam with torn shoes. We took a tricycle going back to the jump-off. After resting, we took a bath. Yes, there were restrooms you can use to take a bath for PHP10.
We’re supposed to head to the nearest “Bulalo” carinderia afterwards but we failed to find one. So, we ended up eating Lomi and Chami, still local delicacies. We headed back home by riding a bus going to Buendia. We were lucky to spot one while waiting outside the eatery. I arrived home safely and with complete and tired body parts.
Buendia to Tambo Exit: P126
Tambo Exit to Cuenca: P22
Tric from Shell Gas Station to Jump-Off: P20
Tric going to Jump-Off: P35
Jump-Off to Highway: P20
Cuenca to Banay-Banay: P15
Bus going to Buendia: P126
Guide: P1000/group of 5; extra charge for an excess member.
Yes, we took a lot of detour but it was still cheap. I’ve traveled and hiked on a shoestring budget!
‘Til the next adventure! 😉
You can only become happy when you decide to be happy.
Happiness is everywhere. It’s up to you to whether smile over something trivial or frown over the usual.
Happiness is within you.
Choose happiness everyday… always.